I wish from 2007

I wish you were still here.

I wish we'd had more time.

I wish you could see the kids.

I wish you weren't there every time I look in the mirror.

I wish you were there more often.

I wish I could discover the reason why you were taken.

I wish I could love a God that would do this.

I wish I didn't see you in my hands, and my feet.

I wish I saw more of you in my hands and feet.

I wish I could hear your voice.

I wish I could hear your laugh.

I wish I could have seen you age.

I wish we had a video camera in the 80's.

I wish I had more pictures.

I wish we could go camping.

I wish we could have chips and gravy, with a coke float.

I wish I could taste your cooking one more time, especially your chicken Kiev.

I wish I could get past this.

I wish it would get easier.

I wish this on no one.

I wish you were here.

What's good for the goose

So today Epstein is charged with 2 more counts of sex trafficking involving minors, and George Nader (remember him?) has been charged with having sex with a 14 year old boy that HE had trafficked. Sick pedophiles, all friends and/or associates with the President of the Unites States. (Who himself has had 23 accusations of rape and assault, one from a woman who was 13 at the time) If this doesn't ring any alarm bells, or warrant an in depth un-biased investigation I don't know what does. This isn't politics this isn't partisan this is child rape, kidnapping and abuse. We've seen the neglect and horrific conditions in the *camps* too. Children in brand new hoodies and toques (in 100 degree weather) faced away from the cameras and being questioned by a cadre of looming white men in authority, doesn't quiet my fears. I don't care how they got there or what perceived crimes their parents did, they are suffering and sick, some are dying, and some have died while that bloated pig uses 92 million (some diverted from Parks) for a Hitler type parade that *the people* had to watch from behind a chain link fence while he spouted/slurred crap from behind a plexi-glass barrier. 92 million that could have gone to bedding, medicine, food, housing for these poor little kids. They are suffering every day. I started blogging about them 2 years ago. What have we done in 2 years? We've lived our lives, worked, ate too much, had babies, got married, bought cars and houses and all manner of household things. Meanwhile the kids are still caged, still sick, still separated from their families. We've gone on-line and blathered on about how these kids deserve to be locked up and treated worse than homeless dogs because their parents are horrible and have broken the law. So? Using that as our litmus, the guilty by association cry then shouldn't we be working on locking HIM up? He's a philanderer, a pedophile, a liar, a cheater yet every day people defend him. It's not Politics, it's Humanity. I feel sick. The kids need immediate help, no committees no bashing each other in the media. The kids need to be our top priority.

Dona Nobis Pacem 2018

I'm afraid
I'm afraid for my kids
I'm afraid for your kids
I'm afraid for decency and kindness.

I'm not afraid of a mislabeled hoard
I'm not afraid of refugees
I'm not afraid of Muslims
I'm not afraid of Jews.

I'm afraid of fear based decisions
I'm afraid of liars
I'm afraid of complacency
I'm afraid we've become too correct.

I'm afraid the balance is gone
I'm afraid we'll have a world war
I'm afraid we can't stop the downward spiral
I'm afraid we've forgotten how to stand up for what's right.

I'm afraid.

from 2015

We read and post all manner of different inspirational messages on Face Book. We post about becoming better people and forgiving quickly and paying it forward. We post about our children and grandchildren, we post about how much we miss our parents and friends who have gone on ahead of us. We post about growing and educating ourselves, about how we'd like to see the world grow and change to be more like our new found faith, or religion or hobby or philosophy. We post about it and then we go to bed and get up and repeat the same damn patterns, hang up on some one if they tick us off, yell at the dog, judge someone by their clothing, laugh or the way they wear their hair. Get angry because your parent keeps calling or get mad at the checkout girl, the guy at the bank, the moron that cut you off. You come home and post about it, get on Face Book and rail against opportunists and asshats, we all do it, we all feel it, we all are doing our best. Think twice, maybe three times before posting a negative comment, think twice about posting an inspirational post that you have no intention of really looking at or reading. Do your best to be kind and thoughtful, do your best not to hurt anyone, do your best and the rest of it will go away. The external clamor, the negative. Be kind, we reap what we sow, we really do. Try smiling at the guy who cut you off, try telling the guy at the bank to have a nice day. I've learned over the years that a kind gesture, a pat on the back a hug a laugh can really help someone get through their day. Kiss the dog on his gasket and hug your cat, tomorrow will be better than today and if not, don't take it out on the mail lady. Be your best. Be kind.

Oh Ellen, some days I miss you so much.
Nine years since you left us.
You are missed.

Mansplaining

Well the, "They took Christ out of Christmas" memes have started again.
Most from 2013, so yeah they're really relevant.


The last few days I've seen the Ben Stein Holiday tree story eight times.
It's from 2013 and we all know that Trump has already started on the phony Christian line about the holiday.
I call it that because he's no more a Christian then I'm a lingerie model.


 I blog about *they* every year.

*They* won't let us say Merry Christmas.

*They* make war heroes live on the streets.

*They* give refugees tons of money.

Again, I'll  ask you middle aged, privileged, white Canadians,
"Just what the fuck are you afraid of?"

You can say Merry Christmas! WE live in a free country.

You can volunteer with homeless vets if you want, (although there are a few it's not an epidemic like in the U.S.A.) so you can go to one of the homeless shelters and help there.
Better yet, give a street person some warm clothing and a sandwich.

You can help a refugee family, they are refugees, they NEED everything. They don't receive thousands of your tax payer dollars.

It's a fine line between racism/sexism/bigotry/hate and these memes
 The memes are generated by hate groups and trolls trying to cause dissension and conflict.

 It works.

 Every fucking time.

I had a Face Book friend, I say had because I ditched him today.

 He had this big long post about how all men are not rapists.

 I agree strongly with that, there are more good men than we think.

He then went on the defensive about how he was a *victim* on a #MeToo thread.
 He (a middle  aged white man)  went on this thread to stand up for men who are wrongly accused and got shot down for it. 

Again I abhor women/men who point the finger at an innocent person. 
They should be exposed as liars as these false accusations bring down entire lives.

However, where he chose to right this wrong was on a thread where women who had been raped and molested were telling their stories.

He got on there and basically told them that they were wrong.

 Women who'd had atrocious acts done to them, had to see him *Mansplaining* about how he was being victimized by being *lumped* in with all these predators.

He didn't mean it like it came across, I'm sure. He needed to apologize and move on, after he was called on it.

He didn't, he blogged about it.

He's not a victim, he just isn't.

Words matter, memes matter.

Check your facts. Be kind.

Dona Nobis Pacem 2017

Another year, another peace blog. 

I'm exhausted! Are you?

So tired of Donald Trump.

So tired of this lump in the pit of my stomach.

So tired of his bombast and his fomenting hate.

So tired of his intolerance and braggadocio.

So tired of his cadre of white middle aged bigots. (A.K.A. THE U.S.GOVERNMENT)

So tired of his double standard.

So tired of his Tweeting.

So tired of his lying.

So tired of his mis-direction.

So damn tired.

It's exhausting.

I'm not rich, I'm not in any position to do a damn thing about Mr. Trump.

Some of you are though.

Is this the legacy we leave our kids?

Is this what we want them to learn?

We want peace!

Do something!